Archive for August, 2011
As I go through life and meet a lot of people, I realized that I am very much blessed despite the fact that I have lupus and some other illness. My health is not of normal people but because of my condition, I can see the compassion of people who were destined to be my friend. Through everyday conversation, I also see how much I am lucky to have the people around me. True, the people I meet are from different walks of life, some are jobless and some have Surgeon Jobs but we have something in common… we have struggles in life and we chose to fight and still smile even if sometimes the challenges are way beyond our skills because we know we have friends and God will pull us through.
It still is a holiday tomorrow. And I feel that I am not well rested. haha. I guess because we always go out of the house to meet some friends. Well, I am really happy since I am getting in touch with friends who are just near our house. Last Friday, we ( fellow moms from SVM) went out to eat. We had some grand time eating at the buffet. Afterward, in the afternoon the little girl and I went to Georgetown to have my swimming lessons. I had my lessons while the little girl played in the pool. Saturday, we attended a birthday party and watch Car 2. Yesterday, I clean the storage room (and I am not yet done) and then went to mass. Today, we went to the house of a friend who I met in 2009 through the preschool of Anevay. I am happy that despite the fact that I am no longer working my network is still expanding. I meet some new friends who understand my situation as a mom and wife.
Way back 2005, the historical house across the Our Lady of Abandoned Parish in Marikina was called Kapitan Moy. At present, the ground floor is now called Cafe Kapitan and the dishes are prepared and cooked by Kusina ni Kambal caterers. A fellow mom told us that they are now offering eat all you buffet for breakfast and lunch. And so, we decided to eat there last Friday. We went there around 11am and we were lucky that we are the only customers. They offer six dishes plus soup and desserts. For Php 180 (plus Php 30 for bottomless ice tea) we really had a grand time. It’s was nice because we are in the presence of good company. We talk about everything under the sun including 4×4 wheels and tires. We were able to even take pictures outside. It was really fun and a break for us moms who never got to spend some time off because we are busy taking care of our kids and house.
Since the little girl’s schedule in school is lunch time and for three hours, we mothers who are waiting for our kids would try and plan our food for lunch. There are times when we just have pot lucks and visit one of our house or we go around Marikina and try the different restaurants. We are fortunate that Marikina has a lot of restaurants and cafe who not only offers good food at reasonable prices but also with nice ambiance. It’s a good thing that I am now having some swimming lessons that I can burn all the food intake. lol!
This week, I had a wonderful chat with a fellow mom. We were talking about what business should we start. You see, she does not want to go back to work after her two month vacation while me, I am looking for a shift in my home career Anyway, we have discussed the possibility of putting up a printing business. She already know the estimate cost of the printers she wanted to purchase plus the desktops that is needed. And the estimate is 3M. Oh, oh! But well, we might be able to come up with that capital, who knows ?
I wanted to write something in my blogs. Any of my blogs will do because I just want to rant. But unfortunately, I realized that there are a lot of people who read my blogs and so I am trying my best not to air some dirty laundry in public, though that dirty laundry belongs to someone else since she really is getting into me now. Ever since I left work I promise to tame myself. That I would be kind to everybody even if sometimes I am super pissed off. But someone is really trying my patience and I am on the verge of really putting her in the right position. Oh well, now that I am just pissed!
With the news of dengue outbreak left and right, I am quite nervous when last Wednesday, while in school and taking exam, our little girl complained about being cold and when the teacher approach her she noticed that she was already hot. Unfortunately at that time, I was not around because I went out with a friend to look for a usb barcode scanner in a nearby mall. Of course this got me a bit paranoid. So we went home and then I give her paracetamol and let her dose off. I am thankful that after a rest she already got her energy back. But I told her she have to skipped exam yesterday so that we can join the event today in school. Thank God, the fever was gone. Still I am still observing her. And I did a general cleaning yesterday also. Just to remove the virus.
No, not mine but my older sister. They are on the process of building their new home. I don’t know the progress of the construction but what I know is that the completion date for the house should be last May, then it was move to June and because of the weather they were not finished until July. Now, it’s August and they are meeting some more problems like the workers did not follow the instruction about their walk in closet. Added to that, their current house was already sold and the buyer are eager to move in because their other house is always submerged in water and you have to used boats to reach their place. Imagine the pressure my sister is now facing.
I feel like I hit rock bottom. Though there are days when I am out and I feel happy. But when I am home and it’s only me and the little girl, I feel the emptiness. I always end up crying. It’s a bit hard. You would think I would get used to this setup since the husband has been working outside the country for almost five years now but it isn’t. I still have the blues every time he left for work. Anyway, as he told me I need to make myself busy. I just hope the blues will go away. And I would have the energy to do some work.
A couple of days ago, our daughter asked me an intriguing question. She asked ‘Mommy, don’t you like a lot of kids?’. I was taken aback with her inquiry and I have to pause for a minute or two before answering her. I need to make sure I have the right explanation since I know the cause for that question. You see our daughter have for a long time now have been asking us to give her a baby sister or a baby brother. Honestly, we are trying. But with our situation and my health issues, as of this moment we are unsuccessful. So, I answered her in a simply way which she can understand. I told her, I want to have lots of kids but we have to wait for God to give us that special gift. As we wait, maybe she can include in her daily prayers her wish to have a baby. Fortunately, she accepted that simple answer.