I have a lot of time in my hand right now since I only spend the day in our room. I still cannot go anywhere. And although I can now get up from the bed by my own and walking with the help of the walker is not really that hard anymore, I am still confined inside the house. So to pass the time, I tried watching movies and series. Then I am online the whole day. I am just glad that right now I can give attention to my sites. And I was able to update and fixed the errors that have occured.

Aside from arranging the textbooks which can be reused, I also plan to look into the toys and clothes that are still in our old house in the province. Believe it or not, there’s a cabinet full of old toys ( which me and my siblings used ) in our house and also our clothes. Yeah, that’s how our mom took care of things. I also remember having some kitchen utensils ( that are unused ) in one of the cabinets. haha. That’s a lot of sorting out to do.

Yesterday morning I received a text message from my husband. He told me he have to shell out 400KD ( 1kd = Php 157 so do the math) for his car repair. It’s way over the amount that he expected and so that means a big cut on his budget. I was already worried where he would get the additional money.

But as I go through my day worrying, I also remember that God never forsake us. Everytime we are short or over the budget he always sends something to us. So, I told myself to keep the faith. That God will have answer to my worries.

Again, as it has been in the past three years, we would be celebrating Valentine’s day apart. It’s no big deal since as we would say it’s just Hearts Day but once February 14 comes I tend to be sad because in my heart there is a longing. Longing for one who I have given a part of my hear to. I cannot also avoid reminiscing those sweet valentine moment with my husband. And I wish there he would be with me even if just for one day.

Since I resigned from work I tried to avoid doing techy stuff. I am just lazy to solve complicated problems involving technology. haha. Sometimes the husband would ask me something and I would just answer him I don’t know. Which he would say, Of course you know but you just lazy to help me! lol. For technical stuff I just let him do it.

Just like this holiday season. He bought the kids gadget. We have PSP, DS Lite and IPAD. Until now aside from the basic games they have not explored yet the functionality of the gadgets. No movies but only music. I don’t know what came into me but I decided to explore. I was able to load movies to the three gadgets. Oh the kids are so happy.

We accumulate a lot of stuff during our lifetime. With the TV bombarded with stuff we can buy, we can’t help but collect more and more possessions in our homes. Although we love our possessions it is a sad fact that ultimately this can add to the clutter in our house. When the clutter is too much that is when we decide to move our things to the garage or to the attic. Pretty soon, we find ourselves needing another garage or another room just to house our possessions.

Two of my girlfriends are getting married this summer. And my little girl would served as a flower girl to both. I am excited since it would be the first tiime of the little girl for the said stint and also the weddings will be held out of town. Right now, my friends are both are already preparing for their big day. As for me, aside from looking for what to wear, I am also searching for some personalized gifts for wedding, so that I can have an idea of the ideal gift to give the newly wed couple. I realized just now how hard it is to pick a gift for them because I want something that can be useful for their daily life.

There are a lot of things that I have in my mind right now. And somehow writing them I think would help me a lot.

- I don’t know what I am feeling right now. I woke up early, ate my breakfast and then bathe. While taking a bath I felt like I want to throw up. I don’t know if it’s because it’s part of my upcoming period or the other way around.

- I am getting tired of my surrounding. That is being confined to our room only. But I am too lazy to practice walking because it takes a lot of effort.

For this year, the husband and I talked about renovating our house in the province. It’s the house where we grew up and because it’s been flooding there every year and nobody is taking care of it, the house is closed to being ruined. The only solid thing that is untouched there is the cabinet which my mom put so that she can showcase the medals and plaques that we received from school. According to her, that her only treasure .

It’s been three months already. And yes, I am super bored of my current condition. All I can do is to surf the internet, read ebooks, watch movies and chat with the husband. Most of the time I found myself thinking of things to buy when I am well and on my feet again. The husband kept on urging me to be patient and even told me that he would give me something like those promise rings that I really like when I am well and ready to shop again . Oh I wish that would be next month already.